There wasn't much sleeping done for Myka, so many things spun in her head. So many thoughts that she couldn't settle. It was as if this whole life that had been planned out for her since she was tiny, it was being turned upside down and she didn't know how to stop it or if she wanted to. Killing people, getting stuck in an alleyway... Feeling helpless. These were not normal, they almost made her sick.
Finally, she did go to sleep though, the light coming in far too soon from the window and she let out a groan. With a sigh, she got up out of her bed, shuffling to the mirror, her eyes going wide. She was going to fucking kill Sophia. Grabbing her hair she quickly tied it in a tight bun so it was less obvious how pure bleach blonde her hair had turned overnight. She put on her normal clothes. Dark blue jeans and a tight fitting shirt. There would be no dresses today, and Sophia was going to do something about her bleach blonde hair.
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Myka's icy gaze never left Dalton as he spoke. She had opened up some to Sophia and a little to Letum, but with everyone around, she reverted back to default Myka. Plus, she was a bit irritated already. Her expression didn't change throughout being told their mission, but when he mentioned the assassinations they were meant to carry out, her heart squeezed a little. Myka had already had a taste of killing people and what resulted afterward and it wasn't a good feeling. She knew as well as all of them that Darkwood needed stopped, and the only way to stop him, was for him to die, but it still left a bad taste in her mouth and a bit of a lurch in her stomach. It was not something she looked forward to being part of even though she knew their intentions were good. The pilgrimage was not something they could sit back and allow to happen. Still, it was trading some lives for others, but it was necessary... Yet a bit sickening none the less.
The stony gaze she held may have flickered a bit, a sag in her shoulders where she had made a point to sit tall before, but when Selenada was mentioned her eyes went big. Honestly, it was one thing to be here with the assassins, doing what she believed was right. It was another thing altogether to contemplate coming face to face with a life that she had tried to leave behind. With Templars that she had tried to push from her mind. It wasn't like she had really any contact with any of them, Myka was good at being in the background, and if it wasn't obvious... She wasn't extremely approachable. The idea of working with and being that close to someone who had made such different decisions and someone she had once worked beside... Again, it felt like another life... Another Myka.
How could they trust her? Myka trusted no one really, but this seemed like a terrible idea. Selenada had made her choice and chosen where her loyalties had lain. This was not where she chose. It wasn't like Myka to speak up unless necessary and Sophia proved it unnecessary by speaking her fears for her. Myka would do what she had always been good at doing even if it hadn't been evident lately. She would follow orders.
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