"So, who were ya praying to?"
The question gave Scarlet pause. It was as if she had been caught in an intimate moment, something that was not meant to be seen by others. Something sacred. "I..." she hesitated on the answer. Her faith was something she hadn't truly thought of since she was a teenager. Her parents had lorded their Catholic faith over her, and while Scarlet complied she had to admit she had questioned it. Now, in so desperate times, she had questioned a lot more, nearly everything. What was the point of prayer? It was a comfort, even if it offered no actual resolve.
"I used to believe in God." Scarlet confided, her eyes fixed upon Ayden. "I used to believe in a lot, but now... I hardly believe in anything." It was an emotional subject for Scarlet, just moments ago she had been so jovial, now she was practically reduced to nothing. "I guess I was praying to God. Whatever that means anymore. To keep our friends safe. I don't know what to believe anymore." Scarlet raised a hand to tenderly wipe the tears from beneath her eyes.
"If this is a test of faith, I am most certainly failing, but I might be okay with that." The corners of her mouth eventually upturned into something of a smile. "Let's don't, shall we?" Scarlet shook her head and slowly maneuvered her body to straddle Ayden, her hands resting upon his shoulders, clearly attempting to change the subject of conversation. "If the world hadn't gone to shit, there would have been no limit to your potential." Scarlet lamented. "That's what makes Seb jealous. And that's I think... what draws me to you."
Scarlet then moved her hands down, her fingers wrapping around his arms to uncross them, to position them then to her sides. "Why do we keep hesitating? Dancing around each other? We both know how we feel." Scarlet had never been so vulnerable, and here she stood, metaphorically naked before Ayden. "I believe in you. I falter before God, but you... you have never let me down, never failed to keep me safe. You've protected me, sheltered me, held me in the night when I cried myself to sleep. Fuck Ayden, I don't know anything anymore, save for the fact that I believe in you."
Scarlet's tears had dried, the smile on her face had become genuine. There was a freedom in acknowledging her own feelings. To stop fighting what she knew at her core was liberating. The world had gone to shit, nothing was certain, nothing was promised or guaranteed. Tomorrow was a pipe dream. Almost a fallacy. The only thing Scarlet could count on was Ayden. She would follow him into the darkness, into the abyss. Scarlet would cross the event horizon that was her feelings for Ayden. There was no going back, there was only forward, Ayden's gravity had captured her, pulled her in, the only thing that awaited was happiness, or perhaps the great spaghettification of all that they had ever known.
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