[M] Breaking Pont & KyoY8

[KyoY8]

It really is difficult to find something you are good at when it comes down to it.
Then again doing it as a job 8 times out of 10 you'll get to a point where you start disliking it.
It's complicated, but then again, that's life. It isn't meant to be easy.

I'm an introvert, I love not going out. I like staying at home.
I had to go out on two separate occasions to be social, and basically to see friends, the thought of going out made me anxious, but once I was out.. I was perfectly fine. Maybe it's travelling that stresses me out.

My family has super music talent. My cousin can LITERALLY pick up any instrument.. even if he hasn't played it before ever, plays about with it for a minute or so and can start playing it as if he had been doing it for a year solid.

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Yes indeed, a break, but when does a break become procrastinating?
I'm doing the two of them today.... fact. I've said it so I have to do it now.

I did it!! Finally!! lol

[Breaking Point]

Sorry about taking so long. It'll at least be another week. I have so much going on! Sorry.

[KyoY8]

Don't worry about it
Take your time; I'll still be here

[Breaking Point]

Sorry, I'm finally giving you a character sheet so you can better understand Leslie.

Spoiler: Leslie Vaughn 

Gender: Male
Height: 5'11"
Eyecolor: Brown
Age: 26

Basically like this.
*Note his cute freckles.

Background: He had been in remission for a while from his heroine addiction, but he's back for more.
He has an interesting relationship with Lucas' father, Mr. Evans.
Not sure of the storyline yet, but in the past, Mr. Evans fueled Leslie's drug addiction in exchange for his blood. He had discovered that for whatever reason, this kid's blood was like a drug for Vampires and tried to use it to catch vampires and find out more information.
Now, Leslie's back for more heroine, so who knows what will happen next. lol

Personality: Very addictive, can sometimes be religious. He feels judged by the world and he's very harsh on himself. He's lonely, and hasn't had very many friends ever. He's sometimes bashful and considers himself the family screw up.

Drugs that he's done: Most things. He's found that heroine is his favorite though. He originally was a raver that got hooked and worked himself up the ladder. He moved to Mexico for a few months just for better access to black tar heroine until he was deported back into the United States.

[KyoY8]

Don't worry about it, I've been completely swamped recently, and I've such a writer's block.
I'm working on replies for the two of them. Should have them done tomorrow.
How is college life going?

[Breaking Point]

Sorry to here that. For me everything always comes in waves.
Friday I had a quiz in one class, then a test in the next one, then a quiz in my third class.
I think my professors may have something out for me. lol

And sorry if I came off as pushy. Take your time- I of all people understand being busy and such.

I mean okay. Chemistry is kicking my butt, but other than that it's great.
I mean I need to chill a little more, have more fun, etc, but you know how I am.

I'm also just so dang tired of being what I call the "single pringle." I look around and it's like everyone is in love or something. I just want a cuddle buddy. That would make me very happy.
I think I'm pretty dang hopeless though. Wanna hear a joke? My love life.
But then I guess that might not even count as a joke considering my love life is nonexistent.

Oh, and I recently got a face book message that reads "Hey Ellie, how's everything been going? I'm not fully sure if u remember me, but I believe we went to *HS together awhile back. I don't think we ever talked much, or possibly at all lol so I apologize for the random message. I was just wanting to know if you ever keep your options open to creating income, outside of whatever you do full time nowadays?"
This was copied and pasted.... I'm not sure what else this could mean other than prostitution?
I mean, if I was looking for a drug dealer I sure as heck wouldn't ask over fb, but then.... a prostitute? Idk.

BTW, this guy did go to my high school, but he is three years older than me and we never met.
Also, I'd wonder if I give off some kind of slutty vibe, but then I still haven't had a first kiss (<If this tells you how little "game" I have), so I don't know how anyone would even get that from me....

[KyoY8]

It didn't come off as pushy at all. Stop worrying lol

I hated chemistry, my teacher LITERALLY wrote the book, and he was so..so.. boring.
How do you manage to make chemistry boring!? It's such a fascinating subject but he literally put people to sleep.

Ah I remember being single... it was boring and I don't ever think.. 'hey I'd love to be single again'
I lucked out in that regard >.< (I won't brag too much)

What you have to remember is that love isn't one of those things that you can just say.. 'Hey I'm going to go and find someone to love.' it doesn't work like that. Not only that if you take a look around at all those couples there is the high possibility that they won't last three months. Is that love? I don't think so.

When I was young (Wow, I feel old.. and I'm not even 26) I was such an emo about love and everything. I had long distance relationships online, and that.. sucked it made me even more emo and looking back at it; it was time wasted. Then when I got into my very first relationship... that was even worse. I used to be a glutton for punishment. It really messed up with my academics. I don't know if any of that helped or not.. >.< Want a cuddle buddy? get a cat or a dog; they are less demanding and they don't get upset when you forget their birthday or favourite color lol

It does sound weird.
Then again, it could be a clever phishing virus. I mean if a virus were to send that message to everyone in someone's facebook friends list that had the same HS replacing the name out every time, then there's a good chance it's going to hit someone that it seems to ring a chord with.
Either THAT or it does sound like prostitution 0.0.. I prefer my one.

I don't think you'd give off a slutty vibe, well if you were I'd probably pick up on it from your writing style.
Also, your name is Ellie? I really like that name!

[Breaking Point]

Well, at my school the entire chemistry program sucks. The program is actually on probation because so many people fail it.
A 76 is a B-... and that's the regular grading scale for chemistry classes; the grading scale has been moved down so that people can pass.
It's killing me.

I'm not trying really to find love. I guess I'm just lonely... but then commitment also freaks me out.. so yeah, I'm a really screwed up person.
It's really just nice liking people. I'd be 100% ok with that.
I guess I'm a hopeless romantic that sucks at being sentimental and relationships.
And I can't have a cat or dog in the dorm. ): Trust me, I would if I could.

Except that we aren't friends on facebook. He sent me a friend request like 4 months ago and I didn't accept it because I never met him.

Maybe that's my problem? Jk.
But really, let's just all these college boys are thirsty.
Evidently I'm too much of a "nice girl." Yes, today I was told that I was just "too nice" like wtf does that mean.
And weird thing is, since I'm in STEM most of my friends are guys because there are mostly guys. I'd think that would at the very least slightly increase my odds, but evidently not. *facepalm*

So then, is there a slutty writing style?
Really? Thanks. It's not very common here in the U.S., but maybe over there in the UK?

[KyoY8]

The only thing I could suggest for chemistry (and I don't have any basis to give out tips on chemistry studying) Is to sign up to Linda.com, use youtube, there are a ton of people out there explaining things on youtube and if you look around you'll eventually find one uploader that makes sense.
Like me with some tech stuff, I spent four months trying to learn something by myself, then I found someone online that as soon as he said it, it was like "OH!!!!! Now I get it!"

Ah being screwed up is nothing to worry about. I'm so messed up that I'm surprised I've survived this long without being committed. Crippling social anxiety; I'm not a fan of people. The longer I am around a crowd of people the angrier I get, dunno why. Not to mention how calm I am, and how I'm literally emotionally unavailable. The only emotion I emit is happiness and being playful or joking. OR the opposite where I'm very quiet (that's when I don't know people, mainly because I'm trying to gauge how much of myself I should reveal to them.)

Maybe it simply went through the HS students and picked a certain few years. Phishing Scams are smart like that IDK.

If I was a girl and someone told me I was too nice, I'd tell them to go fuck themselves.
A too nice girl? I don't even know what that means and I'm a guy!
They don't seem to be guys.. they are boys.

There is a slutty writing style, I've seen it many times; it's very lazy, using u instead of you or using 2 instead of too or to.. using lowercase i's when it should be uppercase. I've even seen girls write using $ for s and () for O...that was only one person though in all fairness and she was a manipulative slut. I shudder at the thought.

Ellie; no it's not common in the UK or in Ireland, not that I've seen/heard anyway, but I'd say it's more popular in the UK. It's a name that I don't hear, it's a lovely name.

[Breaking Point]

Yeah. I have made a few friends who help me. I've also went to tutoring a couple times.
I mean, I think I can come out of it with a B, it's just going to kill me. An A is definitely WAY impossible in the class.
Every other class is doable, it's really just chemistry that makes me feel like I'm dying.

I mean, I get phishing scams are smart, but I just don't know how the heck, because I don't have social media linked up to my hometown, where I live currently, or any school that I've ever attended. (I haven't even done that for college). I also checked with a couple people and no one else knows of it, which of course doesn't mean anything, but...
It's just really odd, and *sigh*.

Haha. lol If only you knew these guys. Trust me, it's just a reminder of how ridiculous they are. They're basically those stereotypical frat guys that you make all he jokes about.
Or at least I do. There is just a lot of comedy you can make from them.

I think that's more of some kind of attention whore style, but then what do I know. I text without abbreviations... exept for the abbreviate lol and IDK. (<Basically I really don't know a lot, so that one comes in handy.)

Oh, well evidently it is fairly common in Germany, at least according to an exchange student friend back in high school. It was also a common pet name in Germany. haha
Well thanks. I don't get that often, so
Just don't look it up on urban dictionary. That's definitely something I regret.