Elisif walked out the door, immediately greeted by Bolgeir, who gave her a scandalous look.
"Good morning, Jarl Elisif," he said, clearly wanting to say more, but holding back.
"Yes, good morning..." Elisif replied, blushing faintly and beginning to walk past him when Bolgeir placed a hand on her shoulder, "Excuse me?"
"Aye, don't be embarrassed. I don't blame you for wanting some, ahem, company. You ain't the only one in your court done their fair share of sleeping around," he said reassuringly, but Elisif only blushed more.
"Um... yes... I suppose not..." she replied, "I heard you speaking with Liam... does he--?"
"Aye, he knows. Ran off to the Skeever again. Not sure why he's belly achin' though. Saw him with a fine lass yesterday. Word is you heard 'em too," he shook his head, "Boy can't get his timing right, can he?"
Elisif furrowed her brows, face wrinkling in worry, "I'll go talk to him."
She walked past her court, ignoring Lucine and the others' calls for her,
"I'll get to it! I have to take care of something!"
She headed out of the palace in nearly a sprint for the Skeever. When she reached it, she struggled to catch her breath and felt her legs become sore... probably from the long night with Raven.
"Jarl? What're you doing here?" the barkeep looked at her oddly since she had arrived with no guards.
"Liam. Where is he?" she asked, earning a shake of the head from the barkeep.
"Heard you shacked up with Raven and ran upstairs with ale in hand," he nonchalantly cleaned a glass with a rag and tilted his head to the stairs while Lisette, behind him, perked up, looking mildly disappointed.
Elisif didn't want to bother standing there to explain herself, but ran upstairs. She thought she heard a sob, so she stopped in front of the door it came from, her hand hovering over the knob hesitantly. She gently took the knob and turned it, opening the door slowly and finding a distraught young man with his hood pulled up over him to attempt to conceal it.
Silently, she sat down next to him and folded her hands in her lap. She wanted to pity him, but at the same time, she found herself irritated with him.
"Are you angry or sad?" she asked, trying to gauge what his angle was. But, she felt anger pool in her stomach at the fact that he was upset in the first place, "I came back looking for you," her voice was firm, almost as if disciplining a child, "Liam," she reached out and grabbed his shoulder, turning him to face her, looking at him sternly, "How in Oblivion do you find it reasonable to be upset with me?"
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"Great, now she sees I'm upset...". With a sigh, Liam pulled his hood down and looked her in the eyes, his own emerald green ones red and mildly puffy, bristling upon her hand touching his shoulder."Elisif... I'm not angry." - he was lying there but felt it wouldn't help the already awkward situation if he was in a state of anger. Rather blankly, the Breton simply sighed and shrugged, wiping his eyes with his sleeve. "It's not reasonable. I know that I did a stupid thing by spending the night with Camilla and as a result you returned the favour by sleeping with Mr "tall, dark and brooding". Liam couldn't hide the sarcasm at that last part, still feeling slightly annoyed at the whole situation. Liam stood up and grabbed his drink, taking a sip and looking out his window at the market place with a sigh. "Y'know, I thought about you everyday when I was on the Wakerunner... I thought that I should be with you, in Windhelm protecting you in one of the most hostile courts in Skyrim against all those who would call you names other than the Fair. Instead, I ended up sleeping with a woman I barely know, and finding out that the person I really care about was sleeping with someone else.". He couldn't hide the bitterness on his tone, his annoyance finally coming to the surface. He looked back at the woman he cared for more than anything on Nirn and clenched his fists, knowing deep down that she probably thought little more of him than a child barely out of his teens.
The young man went into his pockets and produced the necklace he'd bought in Jehanna, the jewellery having been specially made for the Jarl. "I was going to give you this when I returned... I suppose I wasted my time."
Elisif watched him closely as he explained himself. When he pulled the necklace out of his pocket, her face showed surprise at its beauty and intricacy. But, that faded instantly at his last sentence and she wore a scowl.
"Liam Leoncourt how dare you try to guilt me. I will not be guilted just because you feel so guilty for your own actions. You know for a fact that you screwed up and not me. Don't blame me. Don't you dare," her voice had a tone that she had never taken with Liam before. That of bitterness and anger, "You're angry with yourself because you know that--" Elisif cut herself off, but decided she would say what she was about to say anyway, "You might have been the one waking up next to me if not for your mistake. And, in fact, I can confirm that notion. You would have. The one time you weren't there for me is the one that mattered most."
"Give that necklace to... Camilla, was it? She deserves it after being used by you," Elisif stood now, ready to storm out on this petty little boy, "In fact, perhaps split it with the barmaids you frequent, as well."
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Liam could see the hurt and anger in Elisif's voice and his face softened, the young man quickly walking towards her and gently putting his hand on her shoulder. "My lady... I apologise for my words. I know you didn't mean to hurt my feelings and I too never meant to hurt you, in any form. Believe me, I never, ever, wanted to make you feel as if you weren't anything other than the queen you deserve to be. Camilla... I only slept with her because I had to distract myself from thinking about you, constantly. Every single day, I think about you, about how best I can serve you, how I can protect you, hell, how I can prove how much I care for you - believe me, please."
He looked at the necklace in his hands and studied it for a second, noticing the inscription beneath it; it was a poem from back home in High Rock written in the Breton language and it held a dear part of his heart, the same way Elisif did his.
Liam stopped fading at the necklace and looked at Elisif almost pleadingly, hoping somehow that she could at least forgive him for his stupidity. "All I want, all I have ever wanted in my time here in Solitude, is to spend my days with you.". The boy, no the young man, tenderly put his hands in Elisif's own and smiled almost sadly. "If... If you do not wish to be with me, I'll find a way to live with that, but I honestly believe I'm in love with you Ellie."
Elisif found herself speechless at his words. She opened her mouth to speak,but no words left it. She simply watched him as he took her hands, suddenly seeming innocent and sincere, his expression pleading for her forgiveness. "I--" she tried to speak again, but came up short,
thinking of Raven and the experiences they shared. She felt absolutely torn in half.
"I--I have to go, Liam," she choked out, taking her hands back gently and turning quickly to leave, feeling tears in her eyes again. She wanted Raven to hold her and tell her it would be okay, but now she didn't know how she even felt about that? Or if she did, it was masked by pity for the boy that could be mistaken for love.
"I have to leave," Elisif added, opening the door and walking briskly out of the Skeever, headed straight for the palace, tears running down her face.
Eventually she made it back to her court, wiping her eyes and trying to hide that she had been upset. She sat on her throne and regained her composure, looking at the others in expectation. "I'm sorry. I had an important personal matter to attend to."
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Liam stood and watched as Elisif walked away, knowing that a lot must have gone through her mind just then and that it was best to let her have some time to herself. The knight pocketed the necklace and went downstairs to pay for his room before walking outside into the streets, nodding to his brothers soldiers and making his way up past the Castle Dour and spotting Lucine, smiling politely before heading to the Blue Palace, set on serving in his position as body guard.
He entered the hall and noticed Elisif taking court and slipped into the shadows, knowing full well it would be wrong of him to stand next to her considering what had transpired shortly before. Instead, he headed to his room, dressed into his Bretonian steel plate armor and cast a watchful eye on the courtiers, determined to do his job and protect his Jarl.
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