Thank you, really. When my family sees me as less or I am reminded of how my parents were/are it makes me want to close myself off forever. Just close off those pesky emotions and dissolve myself into my stories. I then remember though, that's exactly what the Dark Writer is. The "forgotten" version of myself. He's not simply made of darkness, he's made of ink. He is the absence of love, hope, and all of the other emotions that make us human. The way I view the Fragments is we were once this giant crystal and even though we are now shattered the light still shines through us, and it creates this beautiful combination of colors.
One day that crystal becomes whole again and the light will be able to shine through correctly and banish that darkness within us. I used to think my actual dark side, Jason, was the thing I had to destroy, but I have to accept all sides and learn that we only have darkness because we have seen light. We require both. The Dark Writer is less of my darkness and more my complete absence of light. A world in which I turn my back on everything I love and everything that I am. It's because of that character, that future, that I know I want to be more then that. I want to feel whole. I want that in life and in death. I think when most people imagine Heaven or an afterlife they imagine being together with all of their lost loved ones again. I just want to be with all of me, together, and forever.
Weirdly put wording aside. Thank you. I'll be back to my normal self tomorrow.
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