Ezra awoke in stages, her senses slowly becoming aware of her surroundings as she regained consciousness. She felt the soft, yet damp, cotton sheets beneath her and a coolness from above as a cloth was applied to her sensitive skin. There were sounds of activity and when she opened her eyes to the dimly lit room she saw Samantha tending to her. Her last memory was of her and Gabe fighting...and that had been in his room. This was hers...
She tried to sit up and was gently pushed back down into the pillows. Despite the soft touch, Ez inhaled sharply, pain radiating out from her chest. She felt like she had gone a few rounds with a Crawler and lost, ten times over. She caught Sammy's hand in her own and squeezed, feeling a great relief just by seeing her. She offered her a smile, although it came out more as a grimace.
"I'm okay...I just...I need to sit up," she rasped.
Sammy never thought she'd be tending to Ez after losing a fight with anyone. The woman seemed as tough as Mr. Lawless half the time, but here she was sanitizing the wounds and fishing around inside her med bag for anything to help with the pain, but all she had were a few Tylenol. They'd keep the edge off, but the woman would be sore for a few days.
As Ez awoke and tried to sit up Sammy shushed her gently adjusting the pillows some so she could be a little up. "No mom, you need to stay in bed for a little bit longer. Mr. Lawless and Mr. Deck said it's best if we just stay put for now." She felt her heart flutter some at being able to openly call Ez mom, but she knew the woman wouldn't be to happy about her spilling their secret so soon, but in the heat of the moment as she entered Gabe's room it just slipped out.
Jackal and Deck soon appeared by Ez's bed, Jackal sitting on it, kissing Ez's head smiling lightly.
"Welcome back, "mom." He chuckled shaking his head, Deck's own deep laugh joining his.
Ez stared at Sam, her eyes narrowing when she called her mom, but as Jackal and Deck joined them and started in with a "mom" joke, she looked away, frustrated. She was happy to see them...and they looked relatively well, although scraped up a bit and exhausted...but her anger flared at their joviality. Obviously something had occurred while she was out...and she didn't like being in the dark about it...but she refused to acknowledge their jest.
Sam looked down, red coloring her face at seeing Ez's reaction, at least she didn't hit her or anything. At least not yet, the girl smartly slipped away from the bed going to throw the bloody bandages away. "Sorry, it just kind of slipped out."
Ez softened a bit at the teen's apology, but her concern was elsewhere. She looked at Deck without humor. "Where's Gabe? ..and why are we still here?"
Deck kept an amused smirk and jerked his thumb back to Gabe's room.
"Physically he's back in his room with his head and hand missing, but spiritually he's...what'd you say about that Jackal."
Like Deck the lawman kept an amused smile on his face as he answered.
"He's spending the rest of eternity as the Devil's personal sex toy." His smile fell as he moved closer to Ez hugging her gently. "So glad you're ok Ez, and don't be too mad at Sammy. She called you mom after we burst into your room and she saw you on the floor. Then she shot Gabe in the kneecaps like any good daughter would for her mother. As for why we're still here, it's still the middle of the night and the Cannibals are still hunting for us. Deck and I decided it would be best to wait it out til morning. Then shoot our way out of town."
Ez shook her head, then nodded. Confused. She just wasn't thinking properly yet and they were throwing so much information at her that her head was spinning. "Okay...we'll wait then," she agreed, then shook her head again. "Why are you all smiling...Gabe's death...Sammy...Jon...there's nothing funny about it." She looked at Jackal now, her eyes meeting his as they had so often in the past. "He told me you were in hell..." She stopped then, feeling herself choking up, but refusing to give in to the emotion. She tried to push herself up again, groaning with the effort. "I need to be out of this bed..." ...and she struggled against the hands that tried to stop her. "...I'm going to be sick."
Sammy quickly brought a bucket and Jackal helped Ez up and partially out of bed placing the bucket in her lap. Sammy quickly tied Ez's hair back and they let her go. Jackal patted her back softly. "The Devil would never let me in Hell, he'd be too afraid of me taking over and purging it. As for our smiles, it's the news about you not only being a mom, but Samantha's mom. It's....surprising."
"It..." ..and then she was gagging into the bucket. She had not eaten recently and there was nothing but acidic bile to bring up, the yellow fluid burning her throat. She hung her head down, feeling weak, her stomach churning. When she finally felt settled, she wiped her mouth and leaned back into the bed frame, setting the bucket aside. She was starting to feel more herself, her emotions in check and her thoughts in order. She even managed a weak smile.
"It shouldn't be surprising.." she stated, starting again following the embarrassing episode. "...just consider my past...experiences...there actually should be more."
Deck chuckled shaking his head.
"As obsessively as you've used contraceptives in the past Ez, it's still surprising to me." He patted Sammy on the back and motioned to the door. He felt the two lovebirds could use a moment alone.
"Come on Sammy, let's go see if we can find your momma some food in this place that isn't human meat or drugged." Sammy had come to the same conclusion as Deck about Ez and Jackal and grabbed her gun and coat and followed the cook out. He and Jackal had barricaded the entire Lodge while she tended to Ezra. So they won't find any surprise people eaters lurking the halls.
Once they were gone Jackal handed Ez some water and his handkerchief to wipe her mouth off with.
"You ok now Ezzy?" He asked rubbing her back slowly.
She drank the water slowly, mulling over his question, then nodded. "Yeah...stomach's better...but, damn, I hurt all over. I don't know how you managed all those wounds...I never want to be shot again." She laughed lightly, grimacing with the pain it brought. Her hand went to her chest and she gently probed the tender flesh there. "He said you taught him about this pressure point...hitting me was his way of striking back at you. All this..." she indicated herself and him with a wave of her hand, "..this was his doing...because of some dream to overthrow me and take over the group. Why would he do that? What ever did I do to him that would make him so vengeful?" She sighed then, leaning into Jackal, her head tilting to rest against his chest. "So many mistakes...and no one to blame but myself. I don't deserve to be a mother, I don't even have my own shit figured out."
Jackal sighed wrapping his arms around the woman's narrow shoulders, pulling her close, and kissed her head fondly. "I don't think it's your fault. My presence probably drove him to it. Men like Gabe are very possessive. Be it pride or a woman. I threatened his kingship basically. You just became the best way for him to try and get at me. Old Black Jack technique, if I didn't hire you he most likely would've just keep being your underboss."
Jackal lifted his hand and helped Ez soothe the pain by rubbing another nerve point at the top of her breasts. "I'm sorry for all this Ezzy, but don't beat yourself up over this please. Shit happens, I promised to protect you and Sammy and I've failed you both many times since then. We're humans, and despite all our best efforts failure will always dog us." He chuckled lifting her chin and kissed her lips softly. "As for not deserving to be a mother. You just became one again. You're still learning, but Sammy loves you and you've already proven yourself by protecting and teaching her as you have." He hugged her tight.
Ez returned the hug as best as she could, exhaling sharply, but keeping herself in the embrace and snuggling in closer. She breathed in deeply...his nearness and scent always bringing comfort. She kissed his neck, murmuring under her breath and exhaling warmly against his skin, wanting nothing more than to stay like this all night. But there were things yet unresolved between them and reluctantly she pulled back just enough to meet his gaze and frowned. "I should have told you...I wanted to...but I was afraid...I thought it would push you away. ...and I didn't want to take the risk, not with Sam so fond of you..." She sighed and closed her eyes, knowing her jealousy of Sam was founded in fear...fear of infidelity on Jackal's part which she had no right to question...at least not any more.
Jackal smiled softly at the woman stroking her cheek slowly his eyes looking tenderly into hers. "I understand your worry Ezzy. We've only really known each other a couple of weeks and Sammy said you only learned she was your daughter in the Salt Flyer camp. And on top of all the shit we've been through since that night in Carousel..it's a lot to take in. Even I'm having trouble with it all, but you need not worry about pushing me away. In fact now that the truth is out there it'll make things easier on all three of us. I knew Sammy had a crush on me from when she joined us in Outpost 4. But she's a little young for me and after the life she's had she should look for a man not married to his gun or revenge like me. Maybe a scavver like her mom." He chuckled lightly at the bad joke, but he wanted Ez to know everything was ok. He thought about telling her his whole plan, but he didn't want to ruin the moment.
Ezra shook her head in amusement. "Her father was twenty-five years older than me...I doubt she is too young for you...but I won't argue." She laughed. It felt good to be able to make light of things considering the past few hours. "I'll let her decide about scavving. I didn't have a choice, but she does, and it's not an easy life. Especially this deep into the bad lands. I've never run into this much trouble...and part of it is Gabe's fault, but the other is the land. It's poisoned and so are the people. I rarely come in this far...and I'll rethink it in the future. Once I get back to Carousel, I am going to take a long hiatus from scavving... Maybe spend a few days in a drunken stupor..." Although she hadn't spoken of it since the beginning, she still had doubts about the treasure Jackal intended on claiming. She expected to return to her old life once the search was abandoned. Beyond that, she really hadn't given her future much thought, but she wasn't sure how Jackal would fit into it...if at all.
Jackal chuckled shaking his head. "Well I guess that'll help explain her attraction to me, but still too young. " He nodded slowly at her plans for after this trip, sounded like she still doubted him. Which was fine, it took him a bit to come to grasp the idea. But visiting that Hermit in the wastes set his mind at ease and put him on the final path towards finding the Treasure of the Lost Mountains. He hugged her again resting his chin on her head. "Well, I haven't thought much about what will happen after the Treasure, it's easier to just have a goal and take things a day at a time. Just don't get too drunk cause I'm sure you'll still have a teenage daughter to look after when you two get back."
Ez tucked herself in tighter to Jackal's chest. If she wasn't careful, she was going to get to like these hugs a bit too much. She closed her eyes and ran her right arm around his waist. "Mmm..I'm sure I'll be a lovely role model," she murmured as she slowly drifted off to sleep.
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