Ezra felt the passion of Jackal's kiss, the strength of his arms--but it was his words that brought her comfort. She felt content in the knowledge that she had been forgiven. She lay back with him, allowing herself to be pulled down by his side, his pet name for her playing through her head...Ezzy. It was something she could forgive...if not get used to over time. Wrapped tightly in his arms she resisted moving from his embrace, forcing herself to relax as a brief stir of panic rushed over her. She breathed in slowly, exhaustion creeping in and finally winning out as she fell into a deep sleep.
It was only a few hours later when she awoke, her body covered in sweat and her breathing labored. Sleep had never been easy for Ezra, her nights always plagued with nightmares, and this night was no different. When she awoke, the phantom smell of burning flesh clung to her, cloying, lingering, festering. Only this time it wasn't her flesh that had been burned...it was her mothers. She gagged, groping for the edge of the bed as she scrambled to get off. She fell, more than climbed from the bed, landing on her knees and crawling to the scrap bucket in the corner. She gripped its rim as she vomited, over and over, until the contents of her stomach had been purged. For a few seconds she breathed deeply, drawing the night air into her lungs, but the burnt smell was still there, lingering. Grabbing the bucket, she found her way to the other side of the room, unlocked the door, and descended the stairs.
It was only a few minutes that she was gone and she returned carrying the bucket and a jug--both filled with fresh water. Despite the coolness of the room she stripped and stood in the tub, wetting her skin and scrubbing the flesh with a soap cake until she beamed red. ...and then she washed again. Lastly, she cleaned her hair, pouring most of the remaining water over herself when she was done.
Clean, Ez ruffled through her bags until she found a multi-colored shirt that rested on the bottom. It was not one she wore often because it was much too large, the sleeves hanging well below her hands--it was an impulse buy--something she had purchased because it was soft and bright--a flight of fancy. She slipped it on, leaving it unbuttoned as she made her way back to the bed.
Ez tossed back the blankets, her hair still damp and her skin cool. She slipped in beside Jackal, pressing herself against him for warmth. She cuddled in, her hand moving over the back of his, her fingers interlocking. For a short time she lay there, wondering if he was awake--if he was playing opossum--then she began kissing him below his ear, gently, feathery kisses followed with light nips and the flickering of her tongue. She continued along the line of his jaw, until she found his mouth, hungrily sucking in his tongue until her desire was flaring. With her hand still gripping his, she guided him, first to move him to his back, then dragging his hand across her bare stomach and under the shirt to her breast. She held it there, gently massaging herself with his hand, her breath quickly increasing in tempo. She climbed astride him, controlling their movements and making love to him for the first time.
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