(One of our pending copost scenes with Paint, should be before the ambush.)
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“I have found Abdur Salah, as in found him in the ruins, as in he is…is…oh, my.” Gavin’s voice, as distant as his projection, faltered as the psyker recoiled back in his chair with a grimace. “He is in terrible, terrible pain, and has been severely traumatized.”
“Where’s Abdur been hit and is he in mobile condition?” Sapphira asked as she checked her shotgun. By contrast Crenshaw only fractionally narrowed his eyes at Gavin as he listened.
“With the words I have said, Sister Sapphira, what I mean is he has been traumatized. In here, as in his mind…” Gavin tentatively answered and gestured to his scarred temples, not quite touching them. “It is turbulent as Abdur Salah has been wounded for…there were so many…”
Solvan felt his chest tighten as he remembered the Tallarn’s confession back at Akkan. He desperately wished to be able to talk to Abdur, but his vox was turned off. The knowledge that there was nothing he could do was maddening.
“He suffers greatly as he begs…for forgiveness…because it was…not his fault…No!” Gavin quickly blurted out as his eyes snapped back open in horrified shock.
The shot was a sharp bang that ricocheted through the ruins back to the team in the warehouse, before being swallowed by the distant thunder of gunfire that continued to echo through the war-torn city.
“This is Kally. Abdur is KIA. Repeat, Abdur is KIA. We're cleaning up and will report back in fifteen minutes.”
Solvan feared the answer, but nonetheless he made the question.
"How did he die?" The words felt distant somehow, as if spoken by someone else.
The silence that came afterwards only increased his worry.
"Damn sand man offed himself." Came the short reply from Vincent.
Time seemed to slow, the bishop felt sick in the gut and weak at the knees. After what felt like hours he reached for the vox. The only sign of his inner turmoil was a slight trembling of his hand. He knew what had to be done with Abdur's body, and somewhere a part of his mind was grateful for the small mercy of not having to order the deed himself.
"We leave as soon as they get back." He sent into the vox. "In the meantime, I need to pray for his soul."
He made his way outside the warehouse, the perimeter had been declared safe by Gavin and in the south side across the street a wall that once belonged to a church still stood. He was dazed and almost stumbled with the abundant rubble on the ground as he made his way there. When he reached his destination he let himself fall to his knees, too tired to keep struggling to stand up. He looked up to the heavens through the silent tears that were forming in his eyes. The mix of smoke and dust made for an ugly sky, in a sense it was fitting.
“You have two minutes to recover, Jenkins. Be ready.” Crenshaw growled lowly at his trembling and hyperventilating psyker. “Kally, Crenshaw. You will have over watch in ninety. Keep your intervals.”
“I’ll keep an eye on him.” Sapphira quietly volunteered as she held up a hand to wave off anyone else. She knew it had to be her. The Sister followed after Solvan and kept an attentive eye on their surroundings as he crossed the street. It was only when the priest finally stumbled down that Sapphira followed him out. She halted a respectful distance away from the man and quietly waited.
"He came to me, he shared the scars he carried in his soul. I tried to help him, to keep him away from the darkness." A mix of rage and despair coated the priest's words and Sapphira frowned deeply to hear him so wounded. "But I failed him, I failed at my sacred duty as confessor. And now he is dead. His soul is on my head."
“This isn’t your fault, Solvan.” Sapphira softly assured him. “You did everything within your capacity to help Abdur. You didn’t fail him and you haven’t failed as a confessor.” She took a measured step towards the priest. “None of us could’ve predicted this. How could we have?”
Not meeting the Sister’s gaze Solvan reached within his robes and took out Abdur's prayer book, its meticulous engraving glinting against the Sun.
"He gave me this. I thought it was just a gesture of friendship, but he was starting to let go. Why else give away the book with which one prays?" His voice was thin, very different from the usual strong and clear registry he used to perform his sermons or give out orders.
“Because it was a meaningful gift, Solvan, like your friendship and counsel was to him. You had no reason to suspect otherwise.” Sapphira reasoned as she closed the distance between them. “If any one of us did - you, me, or the Interrogator, then Abdur would not have been in Rakosu.”
"I should have seen it. I could have insisted in him staying with Alia, away from the warzone which would inevitably reopen his traumas." His hand gripped the book with increasing pressure, as if the bishop was trying to crumple it in his hand, the ancient leather cover began to break under his fingernails.
"I swore she would be the last one to pay for my mistakes." Solvan continued talking more to himself than anyone else, Allana’s features flashing in his mind. "But it was arrogant to make that promise, and my penitence is far from over."
He finally released the book and it fell to the ground opening into a random page. He glanced at the delicate pages filled with Tallarn scripture. Then he reached with his hand once more and flicked a couple or pages searching for something. When he seemed to found it he took a deep breath as he opened both his palms to the sky at his sides. Not leaving his knelt position he began reciting.
“Oh Emperor, forgive him and have mercy on him and give him strength and pardon him. Be generous to him and cause his entrance to be wide and wash him with water and snow and hail. Cleanse him of his transgressions as white cloth is cleansed of stains. Give him an abode better than his home, and a family better than his family. Take him and protect him from the punishment of the grave. Imperator Akbar.”
When he was finished Solvan let his arms fall down again and closed his eyes. Sapphira quietly repeated the declaration of faith and bowed her head in supplication to Him. The Sister reverently touched the eagle on her shotgun while she critically eyed their surroundings.
“It is done.” He whispered in a broken voice that made Sapphira close the distance. She crouched down next to Solvan and rested a hand reassuringly on his shoulder as she leaned in to speak softly, her words for him alone.
“You have done all that you can do for Abdur. He is in His more than capable hands now.” Sapphira gently cupped Solvan’s cheek so the priest would look up. The Sister had on an expression which was equal parts soulful compassion and intent seriousness. “However you are not done, Solvan Belannor, as we who remain here are in your hands.”
Solvan couldn't remember when was the last time that he was comforted by someone instead of the other way around. So many years as confessor had taken a heavy toll on the bishop. Adur's death had only been the last drop of poison his soul had taken in a long trail of self-torturing under the service of the Inquisition. Tears rolled down his face which Sapphira lightly brushed away as he allowed himself to tap into the pool of pain that festered within him for a brief moment.
Then the moment was gone. The Sister was right, he had to focus on his duty, his purpose. He nodded to Sapphira not daring to speak through the knot in his throat. Solvan stood up blinking away the tears, his shoulders heavier than ever. Sapphira supportively kept her hand on his arm and gently squeezed as she returned his nod.
"Thank you, Sapphira." He finally whispered to the Sororita, his voice strained by the effort to keep it steady, and the ghost of a smile on his lips. "Let's go back. Our mission is far from over."
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