Slowly she blinked and felt liquid trace down her face. The drop trailed from the corner of her eye, following the path forged by those that had come before it. She didn’t know whether it was tears or blood.
Her eyes were cast skyward, blank and uncomprehending. At times she closed them reluctantly, apprehensive of the things she saw in the darkness there beyond the light of the stars above.
Breathing deeply, she closed them once more.
As the last of the light faded beyond the screen of her eyelashes, she felt a jerk. It started in her limbs and moved to her chest. There it pulled on something that was neither flesh nor bone, but rather something deeper down in her being. Hooks that should not have been pulled at it, straining the tethers that kept her anchored to this realm. Whispers that no other could hear reached her ears, coaxing and threatening, sweet and bitter all at once. The breath left her in a single, quick burst, like a death rattle. Still she resisted the urge to open her eyes and end it all.
Images came in a torrent, assaulting senses that many others simply did not have. They showed her everything and nothing, the future, the past, the present. Their recollections, their understandings, their predictions, they were all numberless and they were all true and terrifying to know. All but one that she could feel was there but could not find. It eluded her like a hare of the hunt as it all weight down on her shoulders and her eyes and her heart and that thing deeper within that was being drawn loose. Somewhere deep within she knew that she had to endure.
Endure she did. Against the relentless torrent she reached out and grasped for something, anything to use against it. The world she inhabited whirled like a pool of conflicting tides and she strained for something more, somewhere to put all these things. Abruptly she found it. It was real and hungry and in the pursuit of perfection and perfect. A wall collapsed, cascading down like a shattered fortress, and the floor gave way to a limitless void. It was hungry. It wanted nothing more than to feed. It consumed everything. The torrent of images, the thing pulling at her, they all were consumed. Then it withdrew like it had never been, leaving her feeling peaceful. And alone, she was alone. Stillness prevailed and she opened her eyes, the starlight filling her vision once more.
Pain abruptly filled the void. The ground under her back, solid in a way that was never meant to be, hurt her. The lights, incandescent and bright, burned with an unnatural fervor that obscured the stars above, striking beneath flesh and bone. Even her own body betrayed her, refusing to yield to her demands. Pain filled her universe. Looking over to her side, she saw that one hand was clasped in a death grip around the shaft of a spear, its tip clean where she could feel that it ought not to have been. Cold air filled the night, lurking in the darkness and prevailing in the light. That was the extent of her world.
This was not meant to be. She knew that, the feeling rising from deep within her. There were things to know and people who needed to know them. The mysteries of the universe existed to be unraveled, not left to darkness. An urge to know more than the small world she inhabited arose from the recesses of her being to the fore, stronger than the fatigue that weighed down her limbs. She rolled feebly onto her side, sliding the spear out from under her. Striking the haft to the ground as a support, she attempted to climb to her feet.
Suddenly there was a hand clasping hers, pulling her to her feet. It was much larger with calluses that dominated much of its surface, a strength that could never be seen only felt under the surface. Yet it held her hand with a firm, kind touch that revealed parts as soft and smooth as silk and warmth that gave her strength merely by contact, bracing against the cold air. A feminine face filled her view as she turned her eyes, shapely and athletic with a look that was a mixture of exhaustion and concern. Strength to protect and purity of purpose radiated from this woman, a bright light giving her a halo that illuminated her face.
Looking upon this figure she licked her lips to speak, but no words would come. It was as if she was struck dumb, her only response a heat that infused her body, though she knew not for certain why. In that moment, she felt nothing but gratitude to this woman. A static at the back of her mind said that there was something she was supposed to say, but the words would not come.
Abruptly the woman turned away and the warmth of her hand was gone. Following the woman’s gaze two men came into view. One wielded a wicked blade and was closing on the other. The woman gave a shout, raising a hand to point at the two men, and started toward them. Grasping the haft of the spear with both hands, she made to follow, but her knees refused to comply and she fell to the ground with a thump.
Looking down, she cast a distainful look at her knees where they lay, scraped and bruised, for betraying her at this vital moment. She could feel the light fading; she could feel its approaching absence, and she knew that she had to follow that woman. In the light’s absence, she knew she had to follow her. Yet her knees betrayed her and she could not. Then she realized something. It came dimply at first, and then became abruptly clear.
All around her the world was drab and utilitarian. The ground was covered in lines of white and black and yellow, dim and worn in the weak lights of bleak whites and lusterless oranges, their rays falling onto containers of faded browns and greens lorded over by peeling rust red cranes. Even the woman was wearing blackened gear that blended in with the night such that she could vanish in shadows. This was not her way.
Gazing at her traitorous knees, it dawned on her that they were all but bare. Strips of torn material concealed parts of her legs, but not enough to cover the collections of scrapes and bruises that covered them. Rips like those of movement after an impact had shredded much of the protective leggings, even ripping parts of the protective sheet that should have stretched to her knees, and still did in some places. But what struck her were the colors.
Looking down at her clothes, bright colors filled her vision, assaulting her senses. Bright yellows and vivid pinks mixed with flowing purples and neon blues. Studying the sleeve of the odd dress-robe hybrid that covered much of her chest over an opaque blouse, she saw that there was a scrap of dark blue, almost black, fabric that did not belong against the background of bright green. Pulling at it she dragged into view a larger piece of heavy fabric. A glance at her legs revealed similar leavings, torn and all but obliterated and giving way to the riot of color and light fabric that lay beneath them. Seeing them, she breathed in, feeling the colors like a heavy perfume as the air prevailed her lungs. It clouded her mind but gave her strength.
The fatigue she felt bled away and she rose once more to her feet, the spear grasped in her hands. Looking at the darkness of the torn fabric, she flicked it away with distain and turned her gaze toward the woman. The woman was rushing toward the two men. As before, one was armed with a knife and one was not, though he apparently had a pistol. But now she saw more clearly. Neither the woman nor the second man was dressed as she was. The first man, by contrast, was a riot of color in his ripped leather jacket splashed with industrial neon paints. Just like her.
Something told her not to kill the woman, but surely the pistol-wielding man was expendable. And the knife-wielder... he had excellent taste. Hefting her spear, she made toward the confrontation, dismissing for later a question that occurred to her:
Who was she?
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