The silence following the book’s reintroduction must have lasted only a few seconds at most, but to Lec, it stretched on long enough for them to worry about what Issa was thinking. Maybe he did think they were weird, or foolish, inappropriate. But then he burst into laughter, and Lec’s brow furrowed. “Hey!” they choked out, but by then they were laughing too. This was ridiculous, but they’d brought the book for him, to create breaks from their travels and to maintain small moments of normalcy in the face of all this stress. They had good intentions, and maybe Issa saw that too.
Though they weren’t as amused as Issa, Lec too laughed harder, spurred by the silliness of the situation, their own wasted anxiety, and Issa’s reaction beside them. When they quieted, they watched him, smiling at his expression, at the sound of his laughter. Joy. In a conversation about everything they were both missing back home, this was a beautiful reminder of what they were fighting for. So distracted by him, it took Lec a few moments to register his answer, and they were surprised at just how much they were looking forward to him agreeing. “Me too,” they said softly as they felt their cheeks warm.
Issa’s jokes reignited their laughter, and Lec waved off his exaggerated thanks. They reminded him of the hat he had stolen for them back on the ship, the one partially crushed in their pack, and pointed out how they weren’t the only one filling their world-saving journey with petty larceny. Their tone too was jovial, and as they filled the evening with their shared laughter, Lec realized just how much they enjoyed Issa’s company. He’d made them laugh like this a few times now since they’d left home, even when it was the last thing they felt like doing. He’d come at a strange time in their life, a miserable time, and as Lec thought about returning to that, their smile faded. At the end of this, they would defeat the dragon, and Lec would return to the inns of Evimaire while Issa went back to his forest. The ability to go back was why they were out here in the first place, but… Why did the thought make them so sad?
They were thankful for Issa’s interruption and the chance to dismiss thoughts of his absence. “It shouldn’t be long now,” they answered, but when their gaze rose to the sky, they faltered. This trip was supposed to take them a couple hours, and they had been keeping time by the movement of the setting sun, but they had lost track of the distance they’d trekked as they had talked and laughed with Issa. Embarrassment poked at their cheeks, and they unrolled their map to check again. There were no landmarks around them, though, and nothing marked on the map between their starting point and destination. “Not long,” they repeated vaguely.
Issa’s suggestion startled them, and Lec looked up from the map with a dismissive chuckle. “Oh, I couldn’t—” they started, but they let themselves consider it. Deflecting was their gut reaction. They still weren’t comfortable around Issa’s other forms, though perhaps less out of fear and more because they didn’t know what to do when he was an animal. Wasn’t it time to take the opportunities to fix that though? Issa had taken on several forms since they’d left Evimaire, and Lec needed to get over themselves. “Are you sure?” they asked, their uncertainty clear in their own voice.
This road was probably a good opportunity: it wasn’t so long that they’d be stuck like this, but it was long enough that they could get a feel for each other and see if this would be an option on longer journeys. Or Lec was rationalizing; they couldn’t tell. They looked at Issa with a new, shy interest. “Okay,” they mumbled. “I don’t know what animal would be most comfortable, but I should warn you that I haven’t ridden a horse in over ten years. Or… any animal, for that matter.” Certainly not an animal who was also a human sometimes. Was this weird, or were they making it weird? “If I do anything wrong, you can just tell me. Or, um, I guess you can’t, so just… bite me?” They were not doing a good job of being normal about this.
Lec turned away, muttering to themselves under their breath, before they turned back to him. “I’m sorry,” they said, “I’ve never ridden someone before. Uh—like this,” they added, their cheeks immediately darkening. “Gods,” they huffed, frustrated at the mess they were making of this conversation. “Yes. Yes, let’s try this. But if it doesn’t feel right, for any reason, we can stop, okay?”
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