Bravado was so great. Really. I talked to her a little more than just in downtown. I loved reading her posts no matter what they were about. And while I didn't know all the personal intricacies about her life....I considered us to be friends.
The absolute most fun we had together was definately downtown and in the rap battles specifically. She blew everyone else away. And I found myself aiming to make my posts better just to beat her. To call it a challenge is an understatement, but there you go.
My mind and body are completely confused. I've never had someone I only knew online pass away. As such...my heart feels heavy and tear well up in my eyes.... but the pain is foreign at the same time. ... like...my mind doesn't WANT to believe it. My mind feels that because I can't see her, I can keep believing she's on the other end just waiting...
But then, my mind also knows that's not true and the pain compounds again. And then the pain is made real when I think of my own family deaths...
That kind of death leaves you awake at night because you can no longer breathe properly. The pain ripped from your lips until your hoarse from screaming. And everyone who tries to hold you, who tries to fill you with love momentarilly reminds you of the massive hole in your heart.
For this, Kebert, I offer you my most sincere, tear filled, and heart felt condolences.
Bravado was more than just a great person who I had the pleasure to know. She was a light on my day when I was feeling blue. She was someone who made me smile. I wish I had more time to get to know her than the newborn friendship that was still being strengthened...
We lost a member of our own family today... but at the same time, death finds a way to bring us closer. All of us know the importance of good memories we can look back on fondly. By getting to know one another and by growing closer, we create hundreds of them everyday. We were lucky to know her, and those who never met her missed out on a wonderful person.
RPA will never forget Bravado.
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